Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Enjoy the ride!
I had a "moment" today at the gym. All the stars aligned and I was able to go to a spinning class. Oh it felt so good I got that endorphin rush...maybe I'm high...I don't know. I feel like a whole side of me is waking back up. It's not just being able to go to a spinning class when I wanted, it's about a little freedom again. It's like when a part of you has been asleep and you didn't really realize it was sleeping until it starts getting that prickly feeling again. Then I came home and read Holly's blog for the day and that all fit in perfectly with what I was thinking. I do get a little rush sometimes just putting on some cute clothes (even if the "cute clothes" are just a new pair of Old Navy shorts and a cute T-shirt), makeup and doing my hair and flinging a new purse. Oh the healing powers of a new Coach bag. Sometimes nobody but Scott, the kids or a few friends see me, but I see me and it feels good to feel like myself again. What started it this morning was...I was walking into the gym and saw a sign on the door about the yoga class @8:30am was going to be poolside. OOOOh I thought, that sounds fun. Too late today, but another day. I feel possibilities again. I had another "moment" on Sunday when it hit me Hope is getting big, I felt sad inside, but now today...maybe it's a good thing. It's going to happen whether I like it or not. Sooo, I might as well look on the bright side of things and just enjoy the ride.
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"life is a highway, i wanna ride it all night long" i just sang that outloud. scared a few of my students. :)
don't you totally feel like you've lost yourself sometimes? sometimes i think that people i meet now (as opposed to that natalie back when holly knew me) don't ever know the real natalie. and i'm an open book, too. it's just weird after you have kids - that's how you're identified from then on - by your kids. even if you don't have kids, then it's by your career or whatever. i've been working really hard to extract "the real" natalie from the mommy natalie. it's hard.
Good message today, Heather. I have been dreading all of SBT's milestones, which I should be celebrating. It's hard when it's your last!
I loved your message today Heather. It really spoke to me. You are right. Mary Ellen graduated from preschool today and we were both sadder than I thought we would be. But hey, I'm trying to see the free time aspect of kindergarten for me:)
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